Divinely Human

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I feel a bit like a movie star after having recently been the subject of a three-part interview on EFT Radio Online about my book. The hostess did an excellent job getting to the root of various aspects of my book, Once Upon a Convent. She recorded almost three hours of our conversation, which can be listened to by clicking on the following links:

  1. http://www.eftradioonline.com/the-real-life-fairy-tale-of-a-lesbian-nun-part-1/
  2. http://www.eftradioonline.com/the-real-life-fairy-tale-of-a-lesbian-nun-part-2/
  3. http://www.eftradioonline.com/the-real-life-fairy-tale-of-a-lesbian-nun-part-3/

However, there’s another part of me who feels anything but praiseworthy for having blathered on in public about my innermost life and feelings. Again. This part of me thinks I’ve gone a bit too far by revealing myself online. I vacillate between wanting to take it all back, fold up my Pandoran self into a tidy bundle, and shelf her away on the hidden most shelf of my closet.

I’m sure it’s a delayed reaction to having stripped down in public. Again. It wasn’t enough to have already published a book that reveals my naked thoughts regarding religion, family, and sexual matters. Most sensible people have the discipline to keep such things to themselves.

Not me, however.  I seem to have some kind of need to “confess” my personal thoughts about any and everything. I ask myself why? Am I seeking forgiveness? Redemption? If so, what is it I need to be forgiven for? And who will grant it? I was anything but the perfect nun, and was never the best possible daughter. I accept now that I’ve always been a perfectly acceptable human. And have begun being satisfied with that.

Sharing myself in online podcasts and sharing my own book helps remind me that I am human, and as I learn to embrace myself as such, I catch a glimpse of my beautifully Divine self.

 

 

 

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