The Spiritual Journey of a former Nun
February 11, 2021
Today’s lesson – 41 God is my strength. Vision is His gift.
In the quiet space within, this morning I realized I’ve been trying to slog through the Course by myself. No small feat for a heavy-duty book with about 1300 pages. Mucking through a lesson a day and attempting to remember it has been challenging. Often without a noticeable result–a disappoiintment to the ego.
You’re doing better than the next guy and beginning to make sense of it—a huge step for a Course student. Where’s that feeling of peace that’s promised?
That’s because I’m still trying to do it on my own, and failing to let Spirit do the work.
Forgiving . . . is what it’s all about.
“Forgiveness is still and does nothing It merely sits and waits and judges not.”
Being passive and sitting back is not as easy as it might seem. My life is about taking on responsibility for myself and pushing through, even though I thought I was trusting Spirit.
Today’s lesson–God is my strength. Vision is His gift—invites me to go into my mind –into the Stillness–for five minutes. To let go, back out of the outside world, and delve into the inner realm of the Mind— of God. I tiptoe in and am drawn into its Vastness. Nothingness. The Void. Into Spirit.
Hesitant and slightly intimidated, I often back out.
The Course teaches that we are more afraid of finding God than we are of not finding Him. Hard to believe.
The nothingness, peace, and vastness beckons. The momentaty taste is enough and reminds me I can return any time. The stillness waits for me.
To return, I must let go. Be willing to take the plunge into the darkness, which I remember is merely God-disguised-as-Void.
God’s strength is not forceful, but overwhelmingly encouraging and gentle. It is sunshine beckoning the flower bud. An Invitation to Open, Soften, and Embrace the Divine.
As I do, my sight is replaced by Vision, wherein I behold all creation as He does—with Love.